Wisdom has never been my department, but I do have some
thoughts that seem appropriate for the day.
Turning 30 never seemed like a big deal to me, nor did getting
older. This probably stems from a
childhood where I was allowed a birthday party only once every five hears until
my sweet 16. And in that case, we
skipped the 15 birthday. So to me, every
birthday is a chance to throw a party!
Oh right, back to wisdom.
If I’m going to be honest, I’m developmentally about 5 years behind my
true age – and I already did my freaking out about What I’ve Accomplished
Compared to Other People earlier in my twenties…combine that with youngest
child syndrome so that leaves me slightly confused about what things I ought to
have learned by now. I realize the age I
feel physically will start creeping up on my in the forms of aches, wrinkles, and
cellulite (hey that hit me in my early 20’s so I’ve had a lot of time to get
used to it) despite my “youthful spirit” so…I’ve come to the conclusion at the
moment that 30 is a useful road marker and that’s about it. At the moment I’m not in a terribly
retrospective mood to worry about what I haven’t yet done in life, but looking
forward instead to all the things I’m going to do after 30!
Things I have learned in the past 30 years perhaps worth
mentioning:
- This is the one really serious thing on the list that the universe has decided to point out (see previous blog entry). People you love will leave you whether by choice or because death or circumstances. As you get older, it’s just going to happen more. However, it does say something that you did get the chance to love someone before at all. And the more people you get to say you love, the better. One day you’ll leave them too.
- Ok.
Enough heavy stuff. I learned
sometime in these past 30 how to put on makeup that Makes Me Feel
Pretty! Huzzah. It really only took like 28-29 years to
get, and my teenage self really didn’t think it was ever going to happen,
but I learned how to put on makeup!
And, in a coup d’etat, recently, I did someone ELSE’S makeup and
hair. Double huzzahs!
- I have too many faults to count. But it’s OK – now I realize there’s some I can try to fix and others, it’s smarter just to work WITH them and not beat myself up against the wall for things that will never change.
- There are plenty of things I’m pretty decent at. I can bake a mean pie, good for nomming. I take pictures I like to look at. And I organize great Christmas parties with intimidating large amounts of food.
- Now that I’m out of my twenties, I have more excuse to feel less obligated to do things I don’t really want to do. It’s ok, I’m older and therefore more crotchedy! I can say no with less guilt.
Things That Seem Great to do Between the Ages of 30 and 31
list:
- Marathon, Triathlon, Century ride between July 13, 2010 and July 13, 2011. Totally doable.
- Publish something. Blogs don’t count, but self-published comic strips do. I’ve always wanted to be a published author!
- Save up money for my own place! As many of you know I did move back in with my parents; I make a pretty modest salary so this is the fastest way to do it. Aiming to be ready to look towards the end of 2011, although I imagine I will take my time about it.
Random, closing thoughts.
1. As I get older, the “Dessert First” quotient goes up, big
plus! (Cuz I care less. Not at the point
where I don’t care, but one day I totally won’t.
2. I seem to be in better shape the older I get. Bionic awesomeness surely awaits me by the
time I’m 90.
3. I am nothing
without my friends: oyster binge of 2010; The Infamous Mud Bath; dancing like a
tribal cow while hurling Mongolian bowls; nerding out at the Star Trek exhibit,
watching the stars from a rooftop in Thailand, pounding out the endless miles
in summer heat, daily IM conversations (you know who you are!), diving face first
into pie and hambones, astounding waiters at Mongolian hot pot restaurants at
how DAMN MUCH WE CAN EAT, fellow shaving cream vandals, virtual coffee dates,
Amok Time fight scene re-enactments, online shopping enablers, beach buddies,
hike buddies, trek buddies, ride buddies, FOOD BUDDIES, museum buddies,
piezookie buddies, a special vine dancing buddy…
Thank you. :)
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